I can honestly say that everyone has suicidal thoughts when it gets rough, most people just don't talk about it. On the third day after taking the test, as I woke up to grab my Gatorade (which was the only thing I could stomach) it hit me: I don't want a child. There are either lower middle class, poor or very rich. I know some people can relate to this. Based on a character stillshot of Professor Farnsworth from the animated television show Futurama , the reaction image is frequently used on image boards and forums when replying to someone else's post that is deemed irritable or disagreeable (See also Are You Serious Face). and i mean REALLY, then you can escape it. It isn't fair to you, or to those who love you. (Lookin at you Australia). Don't get me wrong; I'd hate the weather there too, but then I'd never consider moving there. Sorry to make this about me, but I think you should try it. I don't want to live near people at all. Edit 2: r/newzealand may be able to help you out if you have more questions about NZ :), Free healthcare (overall a very good system), All the karma r/earthporn has to offer (it is truly a beautiful place), Pleasant summers (especially when compared to Australia), Very expensive to fly anywhere (except for Australia). I love you, OP. like and subscribe for nothing in returnEnjoy some skittles! Why did you pick Austin if you hate the weather there? I don’t know what exactly but I know I have the biggest desire to believe in something. You know what you want, you just don’t want to admit it. r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. “I don’t deserve to live” sometimes means I don’t want to face that I have needs. be so mad at yourself if you have to, hate yourself for being miserable, and turn that high energy and unleash it on changing yourself. You climb a mountain, and you get halfway, and you realize that your way is a dead end. Here’s how. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. If you haven't figured out what's tormenting you, locate it, and eradicate it. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast, More posts from the TrueOffMyChest community, Press J to jump to the feed. There were days when all I could say is "Everything should be fine, but I'm depressed so I'm a failure." Some days are still very hard and the anxiety & pain are always there. *edit: guess I was wrong they are on reddit... EVERYONES ON REDDIT! Someone, anyone, will always be there to tell you they love you. when youre that indeep you see no hope and you cant fathom hope, you feel entirely stuck and trapped that you believe it and dont see any exits. When you feel like you add nothing of value to anyone else's life, including your own, the option is pondered. think of it as a positive feedback - itll just keep getting deeper into darkness UNLESS you put the breaks on it yourself and make a move. I tried to commit suicide several years ago and don't know how I didn't succeed. Staring at literally ANYTHING and feeling like you hate it, just because it's there, where you want there to be nothingness. Edit2: Should have added this before but this officially make my most upvoted and commented thread ever, keep em coming. It’s harder, still, to identify new goals and passions when you find yourself living a life you hadn’t quite planned on. Devotion, responsibility, and thought. Wanna draw? The thing is that I don't know what else I want to do. I've taken up smoking cigarettes about three months ago. I have social anxiety. I'm hugging you so hard in my mind right now <3. I don’t want to slow down or admit I need a break. I’m 72 (but 30 on the inside). You just need to do positive things every day, because the end goal is inner peace to this turmoil. Many kids don’t have very understanding parents. Before I got pregnant, I would say I was 98 percent sure I didn't want … Always wanted to visit at least. Waking up every morning and the first thought on your mind is ending it all. It’s hard, though, to know what goal to set when you don’t know what you want. I'm not afraid to die. Insane gas prices which is mostly tax from our goverment. Those who do not experience it have no idea. The meds my doc put me on aren’t doing a thing. No matter how misguided in my opinion they are. I've been through this full forced. Using your knowledge of what you don’t want. For 21 years I had the same thoughts of feeling like it would ALWAYS get worse. Have you ever gotten to the root of why you feel this way? It can be found in life. Aucklander here so I'll be focusing a bit on Auckland: everything is expensive, compared to the U.S, except health care and education; house prices are crazy in Auckland and Christchurch, our largest and third largest cities respectively; we lack the scale for some cool things that larger places have, eg. I hope that you find relief. I have never experienced it before and do not wish it on my worst enemy. I don't know what it was. The need to stop living is stronger in some. I can't kill myself because I don't want to burden my family. I want to believe in something. YOU are worth more than depression can have a hold of you. I am alone, I don't care if people feel the same as me, I don't like people. Go find them. Example: Zagorakis (Greek Soccer Player that was the MVP of Euro 2004 final) was elected on European Elections recently because he was famous. There is a lot of corruption in our goverment that takes bribes and steals money. I really just don’t want to be alive anymore. But nothing out of this world, there are secure zones and there are no curfews, like other countries in Central America. In my opinion, it is a brave thought. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. Wow, thank you for your response. The Law of Attraction is clear on never focusing on what we don’t want. I'm from Costa Rica, generally it's pretty nice, depending of where you go it's rainy or humid. Almost no part of me wants to live anymore. However, in the case of designing a new life path, it can be very useful to take a look at what you don’t want. There is always discomfort but adjust to it. But eventually I had a break through. There are a lot of strangers out there that I can guarantee would be willing to listen if you cried and begged them to please hear your story. While life can throw us curveballs, the truth is most people are not willing to do the work it takes to achieve what they want. The minimum wage keeps getting lower and lower, it used to be 800€/mo and soon will be 550€/mo. If you look to the future you don’t have to worry about the present. Make a list of what you don’t want and then pivot it to what you do want. I have to just find a job and face it. Do it. I haven’t been taking good care of myself this week. More mountains than you can shake a stick at. If you don’t have a job that you love but are still stuck with it, look for better options or you can simply indulge in your hobbies as a happy past time. They don't have the skills to represent our nation but they still get elected because of stupid people. I’m just so tired and fed up with dealing with the stress everyday. I’m trying to break through but I just get in this head space sometimes that’s hard to get out of. 111 votes, 115 comments. It's okay to be unhappy, it's okay to be miserable and hate your current situation/life. Anyway, I have rambled on enough I think. But people who live a truly fulfilling and successful life don’t … But even then, happiness comes from within you, I have terrible mental disorders lol I think it’s comparable. Having a life plan and vision and knowing your purpose and how you want to live your life are the foundations to building your confidence, resilience, courage, and accountability. Or if not, know that another stranger on the internet has felt your pain and cares about you. I just can’t stand the guilt of what it would do to my friends and family if I killed myself. dont let it take a hold of you again. Universities are being controlled by political parties. I want to travel and see things. Nothing will ever feel right within myself and I will never be satisfied with my life, I never have. i used to be like that. I hate people. If someone’s life is truly unhappy they should have the right to end it. im telling you its possible. I agree with you. But there ARE still good people. Thank you. I pretend to be happy so those that I care about don't worry. There are also many reasons people don’t have sex, even it’s something they desperately want. Like mentioned below, it is dangerous. "I Don't Want to Live on this Planet Anymore" is an expression and reaction image often used to show disgust or disappointment with others. I hate the humanness of burnout, of being tired. Around 30% on 25+ and almost 60% on 18-25. Don't worry so much about the end result of satisfaction or happiness, that all comes with time, for now, it important that you give your anxiety and depression the acknowledgement it deserves, and then, you do something positive. It is such an American idea that we must be Happy all the time, and there is something wrong if we aren't. Wanting to leave is not selfish nor is it cowardly. Mostly because of crippling daily anxiety and also extremely low self confidence/self hatred. your brain is deeply affected by bad hormones. And it was hard. Huge tax evasion, not because we are greedy but because we don't trust our goverment anymore with our money. Everything about you matters. I hate everyone. It's Awful. I know it probably seems like there is no good left in this world, or in people. But I have found some relief in life. The people are really genuine and friendly. Yo man. I want people to protest things that they don’t see as right. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. your sad life has nothing to lose so try and make it unsad (i told myself this too). r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. Do it. Draw. I don't even like to hold babies, much less give birth to one. i stopped saying never. That's why we have political parties like Golden Dawn that wants to get rid of them. The media are being controlled by political parties and try to spread propaganda about how we are recovering from our crysis. Man it feels like I'm on The Truman Show where people talk about NZ like it's the best place on Earth whenever we're mentioned on reddit. For tourists, I think it's very nice, everyone seems so friendly and relaxed, but you have to be careful with scammers and people behind your money. if youre willing to throw away your life because of how bad it is. You matter. I don't have a passion for anything. I don’t know if I want to live anymore Tw: suicidal thoughts I’ve felt suicidal in my past but always denied it, this is the first time I’ve ever contemplated it. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. I don't want to do anything, and I'm sure as hell not going to reproduce, so I don't benefit humanity, or have a reason to live outside of that. And the answer is always “I don’t know.” Because I don’t know. A man of principle, work, and character. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. Sometimes, life is uncomfortable. But happiness is like the moon, it wanes and waxes and sometimes it's just not there, and other times you are beaming with it. Whoever or whatever is making you like this. Celebrities get elected in European Elections, National Elections and Local Elections just because they are famous. I just kinda lost the drama even tho life often sucks or disappoints. you just gotta make the effort. Suicide isn't the answer, it never will be. Cyrus Ausar shares his perspective on the thoughts of not wanting to live anymore and not wanting to commit suicide. I Don’t Want to Live Anymore: 11 Ways to Get Unstuck 1. Even if it's a stranger, a pastor, a drug dealer, a gang member, it doesn't matter. I don’t think there is any solution to my problems, except to just get out there and do it. If you have any questions, happy to help. I don’t know if you drink or not but I had the first hand experience of stopping drinking and my self harm thoughts got much more manageable. I have been counting the days until I go away to college. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. If they want to come protest us, you know what Lars, I welcome it. We are working on fixing some of these problems, so check back in ten years. Lot of taxes in electricity bills, water and basic things. this is universal advice. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. happiness doesnt appear on your lap, happiness takes effort. I had a suicide attempt this past May followed by months of therapy. You are forced to work overtimes without getting payed just to make sure your boss will not fire you. This is such a big one. Reprinted here with permission, is a heartfelt declaration to being the best man we all know we can be. Other than them and a few friends, no one would notice or care about my being. What do I do? I don't want to live Anymore. 2. I told myself it was okay to be depressed. Huge unemployment rates. I wouldn’t dump my own feelings onto the child, but I’d listen to what he said and try to be as supportive and helpful as I could. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. I think it's more that society realizes that you can find happiness but it takes time. It’s Saturday and I’ve been wandering around filling in time. I’m trying really hard to dig myself out of it through therapy it’s just really really hard to climb out when you’re in this deep. You know its the right place to move to when literally no one from that country shows up and comments here because instead of wasting time on reddit they are actually out enjoying their lives. I know. I have worked so hard to drag myself out of that dark, dark place I hope to never go back to. I feel that I have lived and seen sufficient that I don't need any longer here. You need to take that loathing and hate and channel it into something positive. The roads really suck, the nature is awesome, some places are very polluted, but nothing outrageous. I didn’t have a choice about moving to my current home after my husband died 4 years ago. I hope that you find hope. And it will be okay. Anyway, I'm here if you'd like to talk. You have higher chances of getting a position because you know someone rather than getting it because you got the required skills. However, I don't just want to be a … I can’t believe this post was almost 6 months ago. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Why? If it were my grand son, I’d probably have that conversation with the parents and see if they want me to talk to their kid or not. and if you hate it still, hit the gym and stick with it. But now I get older I don’t want to end up with nothing in 10 years…. I have hopes and dreams but I'm starting to think that they won't work out, I don't have a lot of friends I have trouble making friends and I feel like nobody likes me. I feel like chicken shit. Depression and anxiety are so damn common these days. Press J to jump to the feed. Our only hope for profit is our tourism. And I'm only 35. You see that if you want to get to the top, you’ll have to get down, find another way, and climb back up from the beginning. Why do they get so fucking mad when they're the ones who told you to just do it already? The truth is, most people don’t work hard. Despite what everyone here is saying: “life is worth living” etc, I want to let you know what I feel. Writing or reasoning through my thoughts helped me feel less helpless being depressed. I don't want the pregnancy experience. It is more expensive than other countries in Latin America, but it's definitely cheaper than Europe/North America. I had my first anxiety attack today followed by another. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. I have recently been dealing with anxiety and depression due to medical reasons. Cookies help us deliver our Services. but let me tell you. I don't know you, and I don't have to. I hope you find your way out of this nightmare too. I don’t know how old you all are. They want to get, get, get with the most minimal amount of giving. He asks me where I want to eat, what movie I want to see, what I want for Christmas. I do not live on a Greek Island overlooking the blue Mediterranean but I live in the second biggest city of Greece, Thessaloniki. But one of these days, my parents will die and my wife will leave....and I will be free to do what I think is right. I will leave chronic pain, anxiety, panic, and depression forever and it will awesome. We don't have a lot of ticket inspectors therefore almost 40% of the attendants don't have a ticket. youll feel rage its happening to you - WELL NO MORE! 24% VAT in everything you buy, unless it is a dairy product or food. Edit: Holy shit, my inbox will be visiting Leonard Nimoy very soon (this is a joke, please do not take offense.) Hi. Sorry for the depressing rant-if you read it, thanks. Wanna learn a new craft? It has been a living nightmare for me and it’s progressively getting worse. get up and fight. Like nothing about me or anything I did was ever even CLOSE to good enough. Thank you for that. I'm hugging you so hard in my mind right now <3. But sometimes it feels like we can be better. I just don’t know where to go and am afraid to make a … Cookies help us deliver our Services. Fuck happiness, just do something in the moment that you like. If you don’t know who you are and what you want, it makes it a lot harder to move forward in your life. I’m so indecisive. ___ Today I Will Be a Man. Watch this Vice Documentary: http://youtu.be/bO0vPGRcn9c, New Zealand. I love you, OP. Redditors who live there, why should they not want to live there? That's why we have 700,000 civil servants in a 10,000,000 population country. It's an injustice to think that you will. The things you do matter. It doesn't have to be a direct fix for your issues, you simply must keep going. There is no point. I don't think nursing will be a good fit for me. Expect many conversations to strike up with folks you don't know. 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